“Even when I walk through the darkest valley, I will not be afraid because you’re right next to me”

Sometimes, life can get scary and you can get lost in everything that is happening. I think for most people one of the scariest things about life is potentially being alone. I don’t think humans were designed to be alone at all. This particular verse is a great comfort to me in those times of loneliness and uncertainty. Personally my past issues with chronic anxiety had caused me to have a lot of brain fog which could sometimes be incredibly debilitating in every facet of my life. Sometimes it felt like I couldn’t even think because the fog is so dense. It felt like having a huge heavy cloud in the centre of my brain that wouldn’t shift to let my thoughts flow effortlessly. When the fog got too dense my only immediate relief was to practice “praying in tongues”. This seems to work immediately in pushing back the dense fog to where my thoughts can flow with a little more ease. It also seemed to give me a better communication with The Shepherd (God, The Source, Creator etc.) during this time of meditation. None of the words that come out of my mouth when praying in tongues make sense to me but when I do speak them they just seem to flow with complete ease and it feels like I’m declaring a phrase in an unknown language over and over again. Now I don’t know what I’m saying but I’m certain that whatever I am saying is the truth, is helpful and has a direct positive impact on my mind and body. During prayer I feel the fog dissipate and if there are any other immediate pains I’m suffering with, they all seem to melt away within that moment. After about 2-3 hours of prayer not only do I experience mental clarity but I also seem to have a strong impression of what I need to do that day to move forward with a particular area of my life. After about 4 hours I have 100% mental clarity and can hear God’s voice encouraging me to confidently complete the task I need to accomplish. Now the difficult thing with this is that after praying for that long, I’m usually either hungry, tired or wanting to do anything but work and so this is when CBD comes in….

My experience today…

Today for example, I have experienced a little fog and so meditating on a few Bible verses, praying in tongues and blogging has filled the majority of my morning and a little of my afternoon. Coming up to the 4-5 hour mark I do have a lot more clarity on what I need to do but I got distracted by chats by family members and more. Running dry on CBD oil in my CBD cupboard I resolve my last remaining can of CBD drink that I purchased from a dispensary in South London a few months ago (will post about them soon). As I’ve mentioned in the past CBD acts almost like a sealant to my newly acquired mental clarity after a prolonged period of praying in tongues, meditating on scripture and blogging.

Below is a picture of the drink I purchased from the dispensary.