“…I have all that I need…”

Yesterday I wrote about the four things I needed during this past challenging year to help me relax and get closer to The Shepherd.

1. Praying in Tongues

2. Reading the Bible

3. Cannabis Oil

4. Online Sermons

One other crucial thing I forgot to mention was affirmation repetition.

The famous Psalm 23, has been on my mind repetitively for the past 48 hours. Particularly the second part of verse 1 which in the New Living Translation reads as “…I have all that I need…” the King James Version is similar but reads as “…I shall not want…”

When someone important to your life passes it can often leave you with so many unanswered questions, worries and anxieties. In my case, having to deal with functional neurological disorder on top of the anxieties grief brings has been a tremendous challenge. With everything I’ve been dealing with I’ve managed to find solace in repeating these ancient words over and over and over and over again. Playing them out loud using the audio feature of the Bible app, over and over and over and over again until the anxieties are fully pushed out. This can be quite hard sometimes when you finally push out the anxieties but then your brain reverts to the same cycle when you come out of meditation for a prolonged period of time. This is where I feel the cannabis oil comes into place. Im learning to take it as soon as I’ve reached a place of mental clarity and truth. When I’ve freed myself from all my anxieties, then is the best time for me to ingest or apply cannabis oil because it acts almost like a cement to bridge the gap or hole in my nervous system that had previously been created by trauma. There’s something about declaring that The Lord aka the Creator, Initiator, Ruler and Governor of the Universe is your own personal Shepherd. Repeating it again and again leads to believing it. Believing that He is your guide definitely allows you to breathe a little easier. If such a powerful entity is my own Shepherd, where can I go wrong? It means I’m entirely taken care of. It reinforces the fact that I truly do have all that I need. Whether in that moment of reflection, I have money or not. I have health or not. I have my loved ones with me or not. No matter what I have or don’t have, since I have the guidance of an all-knowing, ever-loving Shepherd – I have all that I need.